Thursday - 4.11.2013
I don't know if it's just hormones from being pregnant or if I really am that crabby, irritable mom I swore I'd never be, but lately I can't stand my toddlers talking. Since the day of her birth she's been my little pride and joy, man I never thought I could love someone so much and then she was born. Every coo and cry when she was a baby just made my heart explode with joy. When she started to walk and say her first words I was so excited watching her grow. But lately...
She's been driving me absolutely bonkers. She started this annoying little habit of talking like a baby, when she knows how to speak more clear than half the adults that I know. I think it started when my mom moved in about a month ago, maybe just a way of keeping the spot light on her, but dang it's annoying. We're trying to nip it in the butt by telling her we wont talk to her until she talks like a big girl. But there's also the crying, she been exceptionally whiny, I've said it before and I'll say it again, I truly believe little girls can feel their pregnant moms hormones. Maybe she's PMSing but the crying is making me insane. And lastly, there the fact that she never, ever stops talking!
Not even in her sleep! The whining and baby talk at least I know those are phases and she'll grow out of them. But the talking, oh my, I know that's here to stay, why? Because we are a family of talkers. I talk a lot, my mother, oh god don't get me started. Mute button please? It's not that I don't like talking to my daughter, I find most of what she say's absolutely hysterical. It's just when she has asked you for the hundredth time in a five minute period where we are going or why the sky is blue and I've answered her the first 5 times and she continues to ask, well... If I'm driving, I usually turn the music up at that point, at which she will start yelling "What Mommy I can't hear you?!?"
Is it really so terrible that I just don't want to hear the same thing over and over again. It's like when my son is singing to himself, which is really aloud at the top of his lungs and he only sing 5 words to the song over and over and over and over and over, ok you get the point. I can't stand it, I feel this hulk like rage bubbling up inside me when it happens and at any moment I could snap! When were at home I just have them go in another room or outside so I don't have to hear them. But of course then the guilt comes in, am I being selfish? They just want to talk and be around me and I just want them to be quiet and find something else to do. Some times I feel like I'm just surviving parenthood, not really enjoying it. I keep telling myself it will be better after I have my body and emotions back, but will it really? Sometime I think need help...
